I know I might attract really bad comments about this, but I really wondering about this choice.
I know long stories are boring, so I let the details below: So I was dating a girl , things didn't develop any good, but the fact is that I have been chronically single and alone for much time, and I can' t really bear with it. I could try my chance with other girls but i know I will fail like I always did.. so I wonder if I just man up and have a true relationship with this girl.
I knew this girl (30M - 25F) some weeks ago, at the first date already I saw her being pretty insecure, and knowing forward we also came across some incopatibility like she wanna have kids in the future, she likes living in the countryside, she does not like hanging out around people and so on. I am kinda the opposite.. I am not sure I want kids in the future, I live close to the city but in the countryside.. natural things are funny to me, but to do sometimes, not alway and I do like being in contact with others. So I was not sure enough with this, I told her but she asked me to try again and see, until she 4 days later, told me it was better to cut things off.. for then revealing she wanted to do so to test if I would have stopped her to break up with me (at that point we knew each other since 10 days)
Since that point I wanted to stay friends with her, 'cause she told me she feels lonely; but last saturday she told me she don't wanna be friends with me, because she is attracted, and she realized how different we are and that I am not the man for her. So the best she can offer is sex sometimes. I was kinda okay with it, a bit offended because I felt critized when she told me the reason of why I am wrong lol, but still okay. I scheduled yesterday as the day to meet up and have sex.. but somehow that "date" became a real date to "try to start again" as she told me to go to lunch together, for then saying that we should have had lunch but not sex because she is tired and it's summer. I was still okay with it, but I was confused because going out for lunch only seems like a friends-thing to do and she told me she doesn't want to be my friend. She asked me again if I was not thinking about a relationship with her.. and I think you can imagine how things turned up.
It's my fault, I should have let her alone in the moment we broke down. But I know what's she is feeling as I felt the same onths ago with another girl and I didn't want to ignroe her completely, even because she had a break down when we ended things up the first time. But I have been an idiot.. so I don't really know if I should just accept this.. relationships are also coming down to compromises, no? Letting this go means being alone for ages once again
